Lucia had
been worried for days. Her parents could not understand what was bothering her
since she was not that open about her personal life. She had reached a point
where she wanted to marry her. However, she feared that her parents would deny
her the chance to be happy. Her father had been speaking of her marriage but
she had never known the man he wanted her to marry. Crispus was a good young
man whom she had already began to fall in love with recently. Her greatest fear
was that her parents could disapprove of him due to his financial background. They
were poor and lived in a tenement house, one of the poorly built houses in the
city for the poor to live in. how could he be able to provide for their family?
She sometimes wondered, and she was very convinced that her father would also
ask about it. The benefits of marriage were enjoyment of property, citizenship
and children. The latter two would be possible but what about property? Lucia then
realized that time was moving first and in their world, marriage was not all
about love but wealth and family relations. She needed to do something; if she
ran away what kind of life would she live? If she stayed, whom would her father
choose for her? Tears rolled down her cheeks at realizing how confused she was
regarding her own life. Why would not her parents be different and let her
chose the man of her dreams and even if they would be poor at least they would
be have love and happiness. She could imagine that reaction she would be given
by her father once Crispus went to meet her parents. It was devastating, and
she wanted so badly to die.
